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Below are the 12 most recent journal entries recorded in What have we got to lose? [[except our skulls]]'s LiveJournal:

Tuesday, February 13th, 2007
8:34 pm
My love

Being with Josh is like dancing on the moon, surrounded by all the glorious stars. It's like being away from everything else, and focusing on only one thing: him. I can't quite seem to get over the fact of how much my life has changed when I met him. Perhaps you should call me Lady of Carnage, and him Lord of Carnage. 
And grant a rose for the dead. 
I'm not sure why I'm like this. I have no reason to change--so drastically, too. But..it happened. And I am complete. 

Should I even bother explaining how it all happened? No. I don't think so. The curious may ask me. Other than that, I'm going to go ahead and say goodnight and farewell....


Current Mood: loved
Sunday, January 14th, 2007
4:15 am
Don't bother...
    I can't help myself. I love him more than anytihng in the world. And sometimes I can't help but to think about girls who may touch him in the future. Touch him, Kiss him. Inhale his sweet soul. It makes me pissed. it makes me jealous of the future. It makes me want to die so that i dont have to be there to witness his touching another girl.
    SOmetimes I think of life as a privlege. you know, we have to follow all the correct orders in order to not be given the death sentance. but then again, it is an option as well, is it not? Suicide isnt for everyone. but possibly...it could be.
    Did you ever love someone so much...that it didn't matter where you were, didn't matter what was going on around you, didn't matter that you  were up at five thrity in the mourning with images in your head dancing--with him. He's amazing. He's...everything I've ever wanted to find in life. <3 and I think I might have shot his last bullet.
    And that is a deeply dreadful thought.
    He is my night and day. my thoughts and heart. my life.
    And I can't possibly live without my heart, which means that I cannot possibly live without him.

    I hope he can find that out. o.0

    -With all my heart and soul, I love Josh and everything about him<3-

Current Mood: indescribable
Wednesday, September 27th, 2006
8:04 pm
I hate life.
You know...I've worked so deathly hard on getting this guy.
and you know what?
he has a girlfriend.
Stupid son-of-a-bitch.
I trusted him.
I trusted him so fucking much.
And NOW look at me.
I am so pitiful.
But I don't give a damn.
one day it will all be over. and I can rott in hell.
So right now...nothing matters at all.
And all I want to do is to see him, to touch him and know that he's there one last time beofore I die because thats all I need.
All I'll ever need.
In order to die.
Because now I know what love is.
Love is pain, a needle in the eye, a stake trough the heart. But it is also butterflies, imagining him there with you in the end, and feeling safe when he's there.
He is beautiful, a daRk demOn trying to kill me.
He is like my death in life.
but I don't care.
i love him like I love the moon on a cloudless night.

Alice in love.

Current Mood: melancholy
Friday, August 18th, 2006
3:18 am
I am bored.
so time for a poem.
entrails of females,
ghosts that wither away.
i glance at the moon
and wish for decay.
your hopelessness has got me
a colorless ribbon.
your face haunts me at night
and i awake in this dark prison.
my soul detaches and you fade,
only for a moment.
they made us this way.
moths in the shadows
you gleam in the night.
a wilted flower in a bed of roses
such a beautiful sight.
sing on the stars
your twisted words of a melody.
dont look at my rage
filled to the brim with jealousy.
so while i lay here, asleep,
pray to the moon.
whisper away
and then i shall die soon.
woot woot.
By Taylor A.

Current Mood: rejected
Thursday, July 20th, 2006
6:41 pm
well, I am such a dork that I decided to write again.
Nothing more has happened.
He won't answer his phone.
Hopefully I can go to my grandma's house today
so that I can see Jeremy and casey and David.
because they all rock.
and I can actually burp in front of them.
because number 1. their my cousins and i dont have to be shy around them 2. and their guys so they dont go ewwwwwww!!! (I miss HOLLYYYYY!!! she didnt do that either!)
so yes.
I think he's cheating on me.
Oh well.
Shit happens.
Time for another Taylor-tale:
Once there was this girl,
and she was crazy over this one boy.
she decided that if she couldnt have him,
then noone could.
so she went to his house one day,
and saw him with another girl.
She stalked the other girl to her house
and ate her.
then she snuck into the boys window and
kidnapped him,
taking him to her lair.
she then chained him up, explaining her
deep love for him.
he was so freeked out that now
he couldnt tell her he liked her too.
he was a mute for weeks,
and then one day she let him go.
"I love you,", she said.
"and if you won't be mine...
then I have to let you go.
but before I go..."
she pulled out a razor blade.
"then I have to go too."
she slit her wrist once.
not deep enough to die, but deep enough to feel the pain.
He took her into his arms,
telling her that this wasnt the way.
then he kissed her, saying that THIS was the way.
She was shocked.
He took the razor blade from her,
throwing it into a corner.
He looked into her eyes,
and said with full truthfulness,
"I love you"
and they lived
Happily Ever After

Man, I wish my life was like that.
whats sad is that I just wrote that off the top of my head.
I wish he would call.
and I wish that if he called, I would have something to say.
But I don't.
So I'll just wait.
♥ AliCe

Current Mood: gloomy
5:46 pm
Taylor is not doing good today.
she misses him.
and and and it isnt cool.
and now someone is telling me he is cheating on me.
but is it actually THAT bad if I dont care?
I'm not sure.
but I can't care, because if I let it get to me, then there will be problems.
Like, for instance, Taylor's fist going into this girls face.
I am jsut dandy.
And i want to go home.
well, loves, peace and chikin grease

Current Mood: sick
Wednesday, July 19th, 2006
8:19 pm
heylo everyone.
hell, noone is reading this.
now time for my raving.
I talked to my boi today and was v. happy indeed.
and now saddened.
he's four states away from me.
Tis sad, eh?
yes, very.
anyway, I think I might just pass out soon.
v. soon.
hopefully he shall call me back before then.
but if he doesnt...
::starts to cry::
Hopefully soon I get back there.
then he shall see me.
and i shall see him.
wooooooooot woooooooooooot
and and and
I feel so...upset.
It's to the point where i can't even focus on anything anymore.
I can't stop thinking about him. and it sucks, because however much I want to and I try...
he just keeps coming back to my mind.
I miss him,
I miss him.
sooo much.

Tis all for now.
<3 peace and chickin grease.

Current Mood: numb
Monday, July 17th, 2006
7:09 pm
oh my god.
well, since noone reads this anyway, no one can possibly know how PISSED I am.
How much I want to shoot mysef right now.
How much I want to DIE.
How much I want to be in North Carolina.
There was once a dude,
and Taylor liked him
but this bitch
she took Taylors dude away
so Taylor decided to kill the bitch
and eat her.
so she did.
and it tasted like chicken.
but then the dude still didnt like Taylor.
so taylor cut.
and drugged herself.
and tried to put herself into a v. deep sleep.
right into a coffin.
but taylor didnt succeed
so taylor waited for the dude.
and waited.
and waited.
and waited some more.
until finally one day
a guy showed up.
not a dude, but a
and it was all that taylor could wish for.
Taylor fell head-over-heels in love
pushing aside her thoughts of dude
and focused on guy.
but the she found out guy was cheating on her.
and she did not like that one bit.
so she found the girl guy was cheating on taylor with
and she ate her, too.
and it tasted like pork.
and now taylor is waiiting.
waiting for the right one to come.
but she's still waiting
and no one has arrived.
so now taylor is debating
on whether to take a big butcher knife
and take a big chunk out of her arm.
******all the charactors in this story are REAL*****

Current Mood: crushed
Thursday, August 11th, 2005
11:36 am
I love Jeremy so much...I hate moving...I hope mom changes her mind...but I kno she won't. I think I am in love, is that a bad thing? I dunno. meOw. Help. ::sighs:: Jeremy is amazing and I think he likes me too...I hope so. meh. I talked to him on the phonne. I <3 him. he is soOo hot. MeOw. I want to marry him. Meh. ::crys:: WHY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Current Mood: crushed
Sunday, August 7th, 2005
7:45 pm
more than a crush...
Oh my god...Yesterday I met the guy of my eternal dreams...Jeremy.<3 He is so cool and sweet and funny and nice and sexy and rad and everything a girl could possibly ever want and I want him so bad...but I can't have him. I like him lots and lots...love, maybe. hmmm. Jeremy is 19 and cat's uncle and the reason I met him is because I went to cat's birthday party and me and sara didn't want to hang out with the little kids so we hung outv with them...<3. He kept poking me <3 and he's so hot...I hate North carolina. meh...I am going to beg my mom to go over cat's ONE MORE TIME to see him...and hang out with Cat, of course. He hugged me...and he poked me...in the boob <3, and he was just...sitting next to me...wow. I am one LUCKY girl. A hot guy actually sat next to me while watching wrestling and having a girl cling to him...lol. He is so hot...can't get over it. SINGING TO THE TUNE OF FAGGOT FAGGOT FAGGOT! describes it entirly. haha. Shit. I need him...if only I could have him...and you know what, everyone?

I think I like him more than I like Marilyn Manson...


Current Mood: distressed
Monday, August 1st, 2005
6:18 pm
meh...I'm bored. OYG, I went to my old friend's house that I used to play with all the time when I was like, 7 and he didn't reconize me and then I told him who I was and then we hung out and me and lauren are gonna play manhunt later with him and all his friends and stuff. It will be so awesome and rad...I will miss him when I move...I think he likes me...::throws up:: I can't date him!!! he is/was my BFF duhhh! haha NEVER DATE YOUR BFF!!!!! Take it from me...at least I wasn't stupid enough to screw it up, Sara...lol. Sexy day. I went to the dollar store and bought tampons...yum yum. haha. I am so mad a Rachael...I am not a manson obsessive and no I won't drop it bc what she said was WRONG. okay, and she thinks she is all godly and whatever but she's really not...god is shit. She made me cry. ::tear:: My hands hurt...youch. I want to marry Shirley!!!!!! ::crys:: but jhe lives all the way in cali and yeah...but he's totally made for me...I just know. haha, Sara...I HAVE A THIRD SENSE! HAHAHAHA! Personal joke, everyone else. okay, must be going but I love you all and have a great nite...or however you want...GO EMO!


Current Mood: don't ask why...
11:48 am
Hello everyone. I just woke up what seems to be minutes tago but really it was hours and I think my grandmother's house is haunted by a ghost and don't say there's no such thing as ghosts because I know there is. Manson is so hot...seXy. meow. meh...I love Shirley J. Dalhmer...and I haven't even met him...I am weird...lol. Okay, I must be going now and I love you all except for rach because she;s being a judgemental bitch right now...so...later.


Current Mood: cold
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